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thank goodness that attachment of mine will start as planned--26th feb. well not so bad, better than no holiday at all.

i've been thinking about many stuff lately, not that it is the right time to do so with the exams and studying. but i just can't help it.

there is this sth about this attachment which scares me a little and makes me felt insecure. it is like a reminder that i'll be out soon into the real world, out into society and that i am no longer "mommy's and daddy's little girl." well, soon i'll be furthering my study and working (whichever comes first). as time flies, most probably i'll be spending my time away from the people whom i've known for my whole life and from my friends whom i'm closed with and care about. i'll get into another different kind of world and somehow it's terrifying because there are so many uncertainties-- who and what kind of people i will encounter; what will i do and stuff. and also, it's kinda like "separating" from my family. yeah sure i can start a family on my own, but that too sounds scary. i mean i am comfortable with everything and everyone in my life now--my family and friends and the ways things are right now. i do complain about my studies and stuff but i guess it has become part of me after so many years in school. but working? settling down?

it's like getting into another alien dimension.

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i would never have guess. i'm not having any holiday. right after exam, i'll be having my stupid damn attachment for 9 weeks. 9 WEEKS, instead of the much promised 7 weeks. and i thot that since i'll start early, i would end early. NO. WRONG. this whole damn thing lasts up til the Saturday before the new semester starts. i was so pissed when i knew my stupid twice damn attachment result. grrrrr. aaargghhh. damn. it mess up everything that i planned. damn. damn. damn. damn. damn. DAMN!